Twenty Nine

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The number 29 sounds scary. “Mawawala ka na sa kalendaryo”, a term commonly used by Filipinos when you are approaching the dreaded age of 30 and 31. The exact translation means “You are about to disappear from the calendar”. The highest number of days in the calendar is 31 days, so not seeing your age in the calendar means you are old. In 2 years, I will no longer see my age in the calendar, but does it matter? If I will ask my old self this question I would say; Yes, it matters since I have not reached the stability I’ve been looking for before the age of 30. But now my answer is NO. 

Are you happy? 
Yes, at the age of 29, I am. Happier than the word happy.

Are you contented?
Yes, I am. 

What do you feel today? 
Happy and blessed.

What is wish for your birthday?
“Bonheur” – French word for happiness. 

I guess I am overusing the word happy because my New Years Resolution is to be happy and my Birthday Wish is to be happy. But what is happiness to me?
Happiness is when I stopped pleasing other people and started pleasing myself. When I stopped thinking what other people think of me and started thinking about myself. When I stopped worrying about the future and started worrying about the present. When I stopped procrastinating and started praying. When I stopped following influencers living an impossible life and started following people who inspires people in a daily basis. When I reduced screen time and increased human interaction time.

Do you have regrets from the past?
No, because those are my life lessons. I wouldn’t be who I am today if it weren’t for my past mistakes, heart breaks and wrong decisions.

What is the best decision you’ve made? 
When I surrendered to God and I asked him to carry my burden, because it’s too heavy for me to carry. 

My life is not perfect. My soul suffered greatly because I forced it to live superficially. I am a work in progress, but I am learning to enjoy the process. The best walk I did in my life is my walk with God. At the age 29, I rose from the ashes of my past. 

Happy Birthday to me!

 

Outfit Details:

Jumpsuit and Flats: Forever 21
Bag: Kate Spade
Earrings: H&M
Necklace: Emma and Chloe

 

Photos by: Lorebille Go